Right now I am ANGRY.
And I WANT to be angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to just vent and let myself be angry – not composed, not understanding………Angry.😤
I am sick and tired of pushing anger aside and being nice to everybody all the time.
To be honest……..I hate doing that! But for some reason I can’t seem to ever just let myself be completely free to be angry at people. I always try to understand their side of the disagreement. I seem to want their acceptance and approval more than my need to voice my opinions or grievances.
Can anyone else relate? 😩🙋♀️🙋♂️
Well this time, for once (finally!!), I decided to let myself be angry for a little while………………In my head 🤷♀️🤦♀️.
I vented alright.
And then right at that moment I felt a nudging in my spirit to do something very strange…………
No I do not want to laugh.
I found a funny video and managed to laugh inspite of how I felt. And after laughing, it suddenly dawned on me what my real issue is:
I take things too seriously.
I am so pent up and on edge about everything that I am a ticking time bomb waiting to explode on some unsuspecting victim.
I get angry and offended for just about anything!!
This doesn’t mean that I have to always disregard my feelings and just let go and get over it. But yeah….after I have vented (without sinning 😁) – just LAUGH!
And now……..I don’t feel so very angry anymore.
Do you know who also felt like I did? Well besides you………….
He was mad at God too. And mad at the city of Nineveh for getting saved.
Sounds ridiculous right??!!!!! 📖👀 But yes it is true……he was angry. And look at what God told Him:
Jonah’s Anger and the Lord‘s Compassion
But it displeased Jonah exceedingly,
and he was angry.
2 And he prayed to the
Lord and said, “O
Lord, is not this what I said when I was yet in my country? That is why I made haste to flee to Tarshish; for I knew that you are a gracious God and merciful,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, and relenting from disaster.
3 Therefore now, O Lord, please take my life from me, for it is better for me to die than to live.”
4 And the Lord said, “Do you do well to be angry?”5 Jonah went out of the city and sat to the east of the city and made a booth for himself there. He sat under it in the shade, till he should see what would become of the city.
6 Now the Lord God appointed a plant
and made it come up over Jonah, that it might be a shade over his head, to save him from his discomfort.
So Jonah was exceedingly glad because of the plant.
7 But when dawn came up the next day, God appointed a worm that attacked the plant, so that it withered.
8 When the sun rose, God appointed a scorching east wind, and the sun beat down on the head of Jonah so that he was faint. And he asked that he might die and said, “It is better for me to die than to live.”
9 But God said to Jonah, “Do you do well to be angry for the plant?” And he said, “Yes, I do well to be angry, angry enough to die.”
10 And the Lord said, “You pity the plant, for which you did not labor, nor did you make it grow, which came into being in a
night and perished in a night.
11 And should not I pity Nineveh, that great city, in which there are more than 120,000 persons who do not know their right hand from their left, and also much cattle?”
That was cold God. That was cold.
But so true. Do we REALLY have any RIGHT to be angry?
Just think about it.
Do we have a right to be angry enough to die……like Jonah said? (I love that part! It’s so over-dramatic lol)
Jonah had UNFORGIVENESS in his heart………….. And so do I.
But God did me the same thing He did to Jonah – He gave a change in Perspective.
No matter how right we believe we are to hold on to the anger that we feel, the truth is that God forgave us for MORE. Therefore we have to ‘Let it Go!’ as the song says.
Just let it go!!
Lesson learned. Hopefully….…🙏