Last night I watched the movie God’s not Dead 2. I’ve seen it before but last night I felt like that was the one to watch.
In the movie there is a character that had cancer but is miraculously healed from it. So at the beginning of the show she is telling her friend that the cancer is gone and he is praising and giving glory to God! But she seems to be just in a state of……shock I guess.
The movie is a great story about a Christian teacher that gets asked a question about Jesus while in class and chooses to answer it. This however results in a massive court case because sharing your faith or ‘proselytizing’ as they called it is against the law in America. (Side note: I must say that it makes me appreciate the Caribbean! Because such a situation would not have been such a serious issue here 🙌.)
But I digress………
It goes to show the direction that the World as a whole will be following. Their agenda is to push Christianity out of EVERYTHING. And make Christians the enemy.
My reason for writing however is not to share my opinion on this particular topic. Though as a Christian, the movie truly challenged my faith to stand no matter the circumstance or consequence! But my reason for writing is a statement that was made by the woman who was healed from cancer:
I am paraphrasing, but she basically said that
“While I was sick, I had all the faith that Jesus would heal me. But now that He has done it……I find myself questioning everything.”
I couldn’t understand her at that point in time last night. I mean, healing is amazing!! Why question your faith AFTER??? 🤷♀️
But today while doing Bible Study, God reminded me of the lady. And He showed me that I am going through a very similar experience to her right now!
I was once in spiritual bondage, especially mentally. And God revealed my situation to my leaders at church and they fought and warred against the enemy on my behalf!! And because of their willingness to help me and their complete obedience to God……I AM FREE!!!
But you know what the amazing thing is?????
Although I am now free, I question my faith more now……than I did when I was in bondage.
When I was still bound and fighting for my sanity every single day, I had faith in God that could move mountains!! I was determined that the devil would not win! That he would get no glory and his plan would fail!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
And then, amazingly, I was free.
And the emotions or feelings I thought that I would have felt just wasn’t there.
I kept looking over my shoulder expecting the devil to show up again. I’ve been tormented in my mind by old fears and anxieties. I have good days and then days where I am wondering if I am free at all! I have been constantly beating myself up for my past mistakes, holding on to past mindsets, looking back on how strong I used to be and wondering why I feel so weak NOW. 😫
I’m just like that lady in the movie.
FREE………BUT USED TO THE BONDAGE.
So now that we (me and the lady) have nothing to fight, there seems to be no reason to keep trusting God. No reason to be thankful each day. No reason to hold on for dear life!
Why are we humans like this???!!
Why are we so quick to turn our backs on God and sin against Him through Doubts and Fears???!!!!
I wish I had the answer to that question.
But I really don’t. I don’t know why we do it.
But I know what I am going to do now that I see the wrong of my ways.
I am going to PUT IN THE WORK.
The Lord gave me the idea to turn my 2nd spare bedroom into a Prayer Room. And I am in here right now STUDYING THE WORD. Learning more about God – who He is, His amazing power, His matchless works and what Jesus did for me.
Because its apparent that my foundation is lacking.
And so I’m going back to basics. Genesis chapter 1 – Creation. And I will work my way up from there.
Don’t let pride stop you from starting over. None of us knows everything!
We all have to ensure that we have a strong foundation.
Matthew 7:24-25 ESV
“Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock.