I’m back!!! And with a new look on the blog 😊
I am sooooo excited to be doing this again!!!
In today’s post I want to share my gratitude to God for the way He interrupts our lives. We don’t always like it! But……in the end we always realize that it was necessary.
Last night, while in class, my teacher got interrupted by the Holy Spirit, and she felt led to share her testimonies with the class. Powerful, amazing testimonies that shook us all.
I was touched and convicted greatly but as per usual, I didn’t want to ‘overreact’ and make a scene by crying my lungs out.
But God wasn’t done.
After the class, one of my classmates asked if they could play a song.
Then…….of ALL songs on this earth, the student played ‘More like you’ by Samuel Dyer (a local artiste here in Trinidad).
And it broke me down.
This song had been one of my theme songs for 2019!!!! I had wanted God to work on me deep on the inside – purify me and make me more like Him. More patience, more love, more forgiveness, no anger, no evil desires……….just more like Him! And less of me.
That student had no idea what that song meant to me!!!!!! But God did.
While it played, I could hear God’s voice saying “Let it go Abeo”, “Just scream and let it out”.
What did I have to let out??????
I had developed this habit of holding my emotions in and trying to control them. I always wanted to look good in people’s eyes. I never wanted to seem out of control or as if my life was in shambles. Although many times it was.
I was too ashamed (full of pride!) and cared too much about what other people thought.
Wayyyyyyyyyyy too much!
But last night………God said to let it go.
Stop trying to appear to have it all together. Stop worrying about other people’s opinion and not focusing on YOUR opinion. Stop letting the lies of the enemy affect you instead of holding on to what was true.
And so…….I did. Or at least I tried to. I didn’t scream while in class but I cried and cried and CRIED. 😭
At the end of class (which I kept back with my crying!), my teacher advised us to go home and let God finish His work. We were not to worry about doing any schoolwork for class the next day. Just focus on what God wanted to do.
So when I got home, I went into my prayer room and talked to God.
I cried, screamed out, let go of shame that I had apparently been holding on to, and prayed. God is sooooo amazing in the way that He loves us and interrupts our lives to ensure that we see ourselves!!! All so that He can draw us closer to Himself. ❤
Life causes us to forget how big and great our God is.
And might I also add that forgetting our testimonies (all of the things that God has done throughout our lives) causes us to forget who we are and who our God is!
After praying, I came out of the prayer room and began reading some of my old posts.
What a Perspective change that was!!!
I felt rejuvenated, as if fresh breath had been breathed into me. I felt encouraged and blessed……..and grateful to my amazing God for giving me this gift of writing. He used some of my hardest life moments and turned them into something beautiful so that others could be ministered to.
And perhaps it was also so that I could always look back…….to see all that He has already brought me through.
As a reminder to keep going.
Perhaps you need a reminder of what God has done for you in the past. What is YOUR testimony? Think about it…….and know that if He did it then, He can do it again.
May God bless you all. ❤