Tonight I am writing about an experience that I believe will mark my life forever. God has been doing something really powerful in my life this week and earlier this evening right after my devotions, I began to pray. And the strange thing to me is that I began to pray part of the ‘Our Father’ prayer:
Thine kingdom come, thine will be done on earth as it is in Heaven…..
When I got to the part about ‘forgive us our trespasses‘ I asked God to truly forgive me of the many sins that I must have committed today. And then I was struck with the second part – ”As we forgive those who trespass against us‘ (or debtors as some translations use). This part is not a prayer that I pray daily to be honest! So right there and then I asked God to help me forgive anyone who may have hurt me in any way or sinned against me. But then I said something else that surprised me: ‘Lord I CHOOSE to forgive them, no matter what their sin may have been’. It amazes me that I have not prayed like this in a really long time, but afterward I felt a tangible peace in my heart. Forgiveness is such an important part of the Christian walk.
After praying, my husband and I got dinner together and sat down to watch a movie. One of our leaders had recommended that we watch ‘Paul, Apostle of Christ‘ on Netflix and so we pulled it up.
This movie drew me in, in a way that I have not ever felt before. I felt as if I was part of the story, as if I was seeing right before me the manifestation of words that I had read before – because that is what the film is! It is the beautiful story of the life of Paul, how the book of Acts was written and even the many sufferings endured by Christians in that time.
I was moved to tears many times while I felt convicted of my own desire to retaliate instead of holding fast to the teachings of Jesus. ‘LOVE is the way’ seems to be the underlying theme of this movie. To love even those who seem the most difficult to love…..or forgive. And then, to add to the serious impact that everything was already having on me, there is a scene where they all begin to pray:
THE OUR FATHER PRAYER!!!
My goodness! (more tears of course!) Once again God was showing me HIS way as opposed to the mindset of this world. Forgive, Love, Endure, Believe, Live for Christ.
If you have not yet seen the movie, please go check it out and I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments! I hope it impacts you in a deep way.
Have a blessed weekend everyone!