New Perspective

I’m back!!! And with a new look on the blog 😊

I am sooooo excited to be doing this again!!!

In today’s post I want to share my gratitude to God for the way He interrupts our lives. We don’t always like it! But……in the end we always realize that it was necessary.

Last night while in class, my teacher got interrupted by the Holy Spirit, and she felt led to share her testimonies with the class. Powerful, amazing testimonies that shook us all.

I was touched and convicted greatly but as per usual, I didn’t want to ‘overreact’ and make a scene by crying my lungs out.

But God wasn’t done.

After the class one of my classmates asked if they could play a song.

Sigh…….okkkkkkkkk…….

Of all songs on this earth, the student played ‘More like you’ by a local artiste.

And it broke me down.

This song had been one of my theme songs for 2019. I wanted God to work on me, purify me and make me more like Him. More patience, more love, more forgiveness, no anger, no evil desires……….just more like Him! And less of me.

That student had no idea what that song meant to me!!!!!! But God did.

While it played, I could hear God’s voice saying “Let it go Abeo”, “Just scream and let it out”.

What did I have to let out??????

EVERYTHING

I had developed this habit of holding my emotions in and trying to control them. I always wanted to look good in people’s eyes. I never wanted to seem out of control or as if my life was in shambles. Although many times it was.

I was too ashamed (full of pride!) and cared too much about what other people thought.

Wayyyyyyyyyyy too much!

But last night………God said to let it go. Stop trying to appear to have it all together. Stop worrying about other people’s opinion and not focusing on YOUR opinion. Stop letting the lies of the enemy affect you instead of holding on to what was true.

LET GO

And so…….I did. Or at least I tried to. I didn’t scream while in class but I cried and cried loudly. 😭

My teacher advised us to go home and let God finish His work. We were not to worry about doing any schoolwork for class the next day. Just focus on what God wanted to do.

When I got home, I got into my prayer room and talked to God. I cried, screamed out, let go of shame that I had apparently been holding on to, and prayed. God is sooooo amazing in the way that He loves us and interrupts our lives to ensure that we see ourselves!!! All so that He can draw us closer to Himself. ❤

Life makes us forget how big and great our God is.

And might I also add that forgetting our testimonies (all of the things that God has done throughout our lives) causes us to forget who we are and who our God is!

After praying, I came out of the prayer room and began reading some of my old posts.

What a Perspective change that was!!!

I felt rejuvenated, as if fresh breath had been breathed into me. I felt encouraged and blessed……..and grateful to my amazing God for giving me this gift of writing. He used some of my hardest life moments and turned them into something beautiful so that others could be ministered to.

And perhaps it was also so that I could always look back…….to see all that He has already brought me through.

As a reminder to keep going.

Perhaps you need a reminder of what God has done for you in the past. What is YOUR testimony? Think about it…….and know that if He did it then, He can do it again.

May God bless you all.

Trust His Heart

There is a song that I love by Pat Barrett. It’s titled ‘Canvas and the Clay’. The song expresses that God is an Artist and a Potter. And WE are the Canvas and the Clay.

Just Beautiful. ❤

He knows our whole story. And He is shaping and molding and painting as He sees fit.

Yet somehow, I forgot the fact that God – in all His Sovereign Power – has the ability to provide things in my life that I didn’t ask for.

To shape my story.

Recently He hit me a doozy!!!!

And it has re-shaped my understanding of God………in an amazing way.

God’s love through Divine Provision

Whenever God blessed me with something before, I never saw it as if He did it because He loved me. I would only see that He did it because I asked for it and had Faith that He would do it.

Sigh…..I never even realized what a poor mindset that was to have!

But now I am seeing something that I did not specifically ask for being manifested.

And amazingly………….all I can see……..IS GOD’S LOVE.

That’s why He did it.

Not because I asked.

Or because I deserved it.

Not because I stood in faith that it would happen. (I was completely terrified at first! I couldn’t understand WHY God would send this NOW!!!)

But I had to let go and trust Him. Completely.

And face my fears.

And on the other side………..I found the love of my Heavenly Father.

I understand so many things about Him better now……it’s crazy!!!!

But I love it. 😊🙌❤

God loves you!! And He knows what is best for you right now. He also knows when to give you what you have been asking for.

So………in this season, try asking God to help you trust His Heart. And not only seek His Hand.

Strong Foundation

Last night I watched the movie God’s not Dead 2. I’ve seen it before but last night I felt like that was the one to watch.

In the movie there is a character that had cancer but is miraculously healed from it. So at the beginning of the show she is telling her friend that the cancer is gone and he is praising and giving glory to God! But she seems to be just in a state of……shock I guess.

The movie is a great story about a Christian teacher that gets asked a question about Jesus while in class and chooses to answer it. This however results in a massive court case because sharing your faith or ‘proselytizing’ as they called it is against the law in America. (Side note: I must say that it makes me appreciate the Caribbean! Because such a situation would not have been such a serious issue here 🙌.)

But I digress………

It goes to show the direction that the World as a whole will be following. Their agenda is to push Christianity out of EVERYTHING. And make Christians the enemy.

My reason for writing however is not to share my opinion on this particular topic. Though as a Christian, the movie truly challenged my faith to stand no matter the circumstance or consequence! But my reason for writing is a statement that was made by the woman who was healed from cancer:

I am paraphrasing, but she basically said that

“While I was sick, I had all the faith that Jesus would heal me. But now that He has done it……I find myself questioning everything.”


I couldn’t understand her at that point in time last night. I mean, healing is amazing!! Why question your faith AFTER??? 🤷‍♀️

But today while doing Bible Study, God reminded me of the lady. And He showed me that I am going through a very similar experience to her right now!

I was once in spiritual bondage, especially mentally. And God revealed my situation to my leaders at church and they fought and warred against the enemy on my behalf!! And because of their willingness to help me and their complete obedience to God……I AM FREE!!!

But you know what the amazing thing is?????


Although I am now free, I question my faith more now……than I did when I was in bondage.

When I was still bound and fighting for my sanity every single day, I had faith in God that could move mountains!! I was determined that the devil would not win! That he would get no glory and his plan would fail!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

And then, amazingly, I was free.


And the emotions or feelings I thought that I would have felt just wasn’t there.

I kept looking over my shoulder expecting the devil to show up again. I’ve been tormented in my mind by old fears and anxieties. I have good days and then days where I am wondering if I am free at all! I have been constantly beating myself up for my past mistakes, holding on to past mindsets, looking back on how strong I used to be and wondering why I feel so weak NOW. 😫

I’m just like that lady in the movie.

FREE………BUT USED TO THE BONDAGE.


So now that we (me and the lady) have nothing to fight, there seems to be no reason to keep trusting God. No reason to be thankful each day. No reason to hold on for dear life!

Why are we humans like this???!!


Why are we so quick to turn our backs on God and sin against Him through Doubts and Fears???!!!!

Sigggghhhhhhhhhhh……………………..

I wish I had the answer to that question.
But I really don’t. I don’t know why we do it.

But I know what I am going to do now that I see the wrong of my ways.

I am going to PUT IN THE WORK.
The Lord gave me the idea to turn my 2nd spare bedroom into a Prayer Room. And I am in here right now STUDYING THE WORD. Learning more about God – who He is, His amazing power, His matchless works and what Jesus did for me.

Because its apparent that my foundation is lacking.

And so I’m going back to basics. Genesis chapter 1 – Creation. And I will work my way up from there.

Don’t let pride stop you from starting over. None of us knows everything!

We all have to ensure that we have a strong foundation.

What do you plan to do to ensure that your foundation in Christ is unshakeable?

Matthew 7:24‭-‬25 ESV
Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock. 


Prison Perspective

I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.

Ephesians 4:1‭-‬3 ESV

These verses are literally at the top of my favorite verses list. I love Paul’s way of writing! And to be honest, the first time I read it I had been struggling with humility and God used these verses to really minister to me. So they are really dear to my heart.

This morning however, while reading I got a new perspective…….

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