Wonderfully made

Have you ever looked at a picture of nature and been blown away by the sheer magnitude of God’s Power?

Have you ever wondered at how marvelous it is to know that God created the Earth and declared that ‘It is Good’?

And then did you realise that He also created Man and said ‘It is Good’?

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God created YOU!!!!!!

He created you to look just the way that you look and have the personality and unique characteristics that make you….YOU.

AND HE SAID THAT ‘IT IS GOOD’.

Just the way you are. Imperfections and all. 😭

He loves us just the way we are.

Psalm 139 verses 13 & 14 says:

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

So why do we worry???!!!

Why do we fret and fuss and suffer with anxiety and depression??!!!

When we serve THE GOD that created the mountains and the trees and the waterfalls……..I meannnnnnn He CREATED WATER!!!!!!! 🀯 He didn’t form it out of something.

He created it.

Ponder on that for a moment……

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Today I kept looking at this picture and envisioned myself standing on the edge overlooking the waterfall. Me…..this puny human……in comparison to the vast amount of enormous (yet gorgeous!) trees and this massive waterfall.

And it humbled me.

Because if my God could make THAT……….then my issues, struggles and problems are nowhere near to being too hard for Him to handle.

It was probably harder to make the waterfall! (Jk….lol)

So then …….WHY WORRY? πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ

I pray your perspective changes too. Because He’s got this.

He knew you would go through this even before He formed you.

Psalms 139:16 ESV

Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

Soooooooo He also knows that you WILL get through it.

It’s time to trust Him and love up on your God instead of worrying!!!

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I am sharing a song that has really been blessing me today because it asks the same question! Here it is:

I will give thanks

Hope this day turns out even better than it started off for you 😊❀

Paid in FULL

Today has been one of those days……

A day full of LESSONS.

You ever had one of those?

A day where God speaks to you and teaches you multiple lessons that you really need in order to MOVE FORWARD. Because honestly, its easy to live the Christian life………and not grow. And just happily remain comfortable.

And well…….I’ve been starting to get comfortable. Or at least I have not been liking God’s methods for taking me OUT of my comfort zone!
So everytime He lets something happen, all I do is retaliate. Angrily. πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈπŸ™ˆ

Like a wild animal that’s found a comfortable spot to sleep in and has no plans on moving from it.

Sigh…….

Well TODAY, from the moment I woke up He began speaking to me. And He told me to get up and go to my prayer room. Right Now.

So I did. (After a few minutes……*shame*)

And I sat on the floor waiting on Him to tell me what to do. Then I looked to my left, saw my notebook and began to write. I didn’t know what I was going to write about, I was just writing.

But God has an amazing way of showing us ourselves. And boy did He show me!!!!

So Lesson#1 is:

Stop being a baby.


That’s right. I wanted everyone to baby me, hug me, lay my head on their shoulder and tell me that everything was going to be alright.

But life isn’t always like that!!


I needed to just let go of my baggage, believe that God was in controlΒ  and get over myself.

Whew!!!
Sometimes God has to be harsh with us (like a good Father would) and tell us the truth. It doesn’t make sense moving around in circles. There is work to be done!!!

So I did it. Prayed, criedΒ  screamed and let it all go. With no intentions of picking them back up again.

And I was about to get ready for work when I felt like I shouldn’t go to work today.

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But I mean, after telling God I’ll trust Him, I felt like I really should obey Him with this (to throw a tantrum now would be pointless!).

And this led to Lesson#2:

God should be your priority, not your job.


Double whew!!!!

It hit me that I was more loyal to my job than I was to God. I always tried to be present and I was dedicated no matter what they asked of me.

And I should be even more so, WITH GOD!

God has plans for our lives that may or may not include our present jobs. So getting a good report at work should not be nearly as important as getting a good report from The Lord.


It was a real eye-opening revelation for me! I hadn’t realised how much I had wanted to get a good report that reflected my good attendance. Man’s accolades could never match up to getting a “Well Done!” from Christ when we go to Heaven.

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And so I spent today with God. I washed and cooked but was sure to spend time in worship and communion with Him. And while on my laptop I felt led to watch a short film titled Paid in Full.

Now lemme be completely honest……..the movie is very corny and not very well thought out at all! But when I tried to switch to another movie, I felt as if the Holy Spirit was saying ‘Give it a chance’.

So I watched it out.

And God hit me my third lesson for today!! Lesson#3:

You do not have to keep condemning yourself and punishing yourself for past sins.


Your debt has been PAID IN FULL!!!!!


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I don’t know if there is anyone else out there like me, but sadly while growing up I developed this mentality that rewards are earned. They are not given freely.

Love is earned.

Forgiveness is earned.

Blessings are earned.

And mistakes……..deserve punishment.

And it turns out that I have been applying this mindset to my faith in Christ!

So it’s like: ‘Yes God thank you for dying for my sins…….but I really shouldn’t make any mistakes. I shouldn’t sin at all!! I should follow the rules. Because breaking the rules lead to …….punishment.’

And that is how I have been living. No one else has been punishing me, but I have been punishing myself – with my words,Β with my thoughts, with my disgust in my inability to just get things right!

But there was no need for that.

My debts (the mistakes, the struggles, the sins that all deserve eternal death) have been wiped CLEAN.


That mindset has now been broken.

But the movie also challenged me to share my faith more.

God has been so remarkably good to me! He literally saved me from losing my mindΒ and He wants me to share that testimony with others!!

There is no need for shame. Or fear. Or doubt.

This Christian walk is not for the faint of heart. We have to be willing to suffer for the Gospel of Jesus Christ!

And for the first time………..I am willing to do just that.


Walking in Purpose

Have you ever looked at a clock? Like really paid attention to it?

Have you ever realized how quickly the second hand moves around representing each second that has passed?

Did it give you anxiety, when you realized that you were sitting doing nothing while TIME passed?!!

No????

Well it’s just me then………..πŸ˜“ sigh

TIME

At my church there is a term we hear often:

We are in a time where we have no time.

Which means more or less:

Don’t waste time!

Jesus is coming SOON! Sooner than we think.

Are you ready?

Continue reading “Walking in Purpose”

Being Alone

Sigh.

Right now I am laying on my bed, watching videos on YouTube…….and I am completely alone.

I am free to do what I want, when I want, how I want!!!!!!!!!

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But I am so used to having a structure to my day that honestly………………I don’t know what to do!!!! 😟

I miss my little sister for moments like this.

She was so much fun to be around. We would enjoy talking about our business plans, or dancing or laughing at some crazy thing she had done 😁.

She was the fun one. Not me.

I was the big sister!!! The responsible one. The reliable one. The not so fun one.

And now that she is gone, I have had many moments like this. Moments where I realise that sadly…………..I am BORING!!!! πŸ™„

And more and more I see the wisdom of God in telling me to move out on my own.

I need to find ME.

I have been living on my own for about 6 months now and I have battled with feelings of loneliness off and on during that time.

But the most amazing thing happened over those 6 months:

Turns out………I LOVE TO COOK!!!

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When I was at home with my family, I was not exactly the chef type. My sisters were pros at cooking though!!!!!! But I was great at baking bread and making juice πŸ˜‚.

And yet they still appreciated me for it! You just gotta love family ❀.

So honestly I surprised myself at how good I am at cooking! 😁

Wraps filled with the veggies (and minced beef) from the first pic! Heaven!!! πŸ˜‹

I tried an italian sausage pizza and a minced beef pizza. Delicious!! πŸ‘Œ

But I would not have learned that………..

If I wasn’t alone.

There are so many benefits to being alone! But some drawbacks too.

Benefits:

  • You learn about yourself – your capabilities, your strengths, your weaknesses
  • It forces you to see yourself – your flaws and insecurities
  • You get to relax without being interrupted
  • You get to spend more time with God
  • You have control over how your home looks!
  • You have control over your time – You can do whatever you WANT!!!
  • You can dance or sing through your entire house with abandon πŸ˜„
  • Having guests over is a treat! You get to be a host!
  • It is good preparation for marriage
  • You learn how to spend money wisely – honestly you are forced to!

Drawbacks:

  • The silence can become deafening
  • There isn’t anyone there physically to talk to about your day
  • There isn’t anyone there to see your accomplishments
  • You have to reach out to others intentionally.
  • Fear can become a problem if you let your mind (and the enemy) have too much leeway.
  • You can become resentful – mad at your friends for not visiting or calling.
  • You can become too independent and feel like you don’t need anyone.
  • You can get weird and begin talking to yourself πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈ
  • You have to do everything for yourself! Even when you’re sick!!!!

But I have got to say that despite the drawbacks and the periodical feelings of loneliness…….I am learning to like being alone.

And even though I miss my little sister, I am learning now what it means to HAVE FUN!!! And how to find the fun in myself.

I am learning about ME.

And it feels GOOD!!!

Herb roasted potatoes and a sauce I created myself!

Chicken Alfredo!!!!!

So change your perspective! As I like to say now “You’re not alone. You’re single!”

So go on and LIVE!! And learn the lessons God has for you in this season.

It will be worth it 😊❀.

Freedom

What is FREEDOM?

According to Google:

This blew me away!

The power or right to act, speak or think as one WANTS.

What do YOU want to do?

Why do you want to be FREE?

Well my answers to those questions would look like this:

  1. I want to LIVE for the first time ever!!! And I want to especially live according to God’s word. I want to think Godly thoughts and have Godly desires.
  2. So that I can be the person God put me on this earth to be………..without resrictions. My mind is continually trying to control what I can and cannot do and I hate it!

Continue reading “Freedom”