New Perspective

I’m back!!! And with a new look on the blog ๐Ÿ˜Š

I am sooooo excited to be doing this again!!!

In today’s post I want to share my gratitude to God for the way He interrupts our lives. We don’t always like it! But……in the end we always realize that it was necessary.

Last night while in class, my teacher got interrupted by the Holy Spirit, and she felt led to share her testimonies with the class. Powerful, amazing testimonies that shook us all.

I was touched and convicted greatly but as per usual, I didn’t want to ‘overreact’ and make a scene by crying my lungs out.

But God wasn’t done.

After the class one of my classmates asked if they could play a song.

Sigh…….okkkkkkkkk…….

Of all songs on this earth, the student played ‘More like you’ by a local artiste.

And it broke me down.

This song had been one of my theme songs for 2019. I wanted God to work on me, purify me and make me more like Him. More patience, more love, more forgiveness, no anger, no evil desires……….just more like Him! And less of me.

That student had no idea what that song meant to me!!!!!! But God did.

While it played, I could hear God’s voice saying “Let it go Abeo”, “Just scream and let it out”.

What did I have to let out??????

EVERYTHING

I had developed this habit of holding my emotions in and trying to control them. I always wanted to look good in people’s eyes. I never wanted to seem out of control or as if my life was in shambles. Although many times it was.

I was too ashamed (full of pride!) and cared too much about what other people thought.

Wayyyyyyyyyyy too much!

But last night………God said to let it go. Stop trying to appear to have it all together. Stop worrying about other people’s opinion and not focusing on YOUR opinion. Stop letting the lies of the enemy affect you instead of holding on to what was true.

LET GO

And so…….I did. Or at least I tried to. I didn’t scream while in class but I cried and cried loudly. ๐Ÿ˜ญ

My teacher advised us to go home and let God finish His work. We were not to worry about doing any schoolwork for class the next day. Just focus on what God wanted to do.

When I got home, I got into my prayer room and talked to God. I cried, screamed out, let go of shame that I had apparently been holding on to, and prayed. God is sooooo amazing in the way that He loves us and interrupts our lives to ensure that we see ourselves!!! All so that He can draw us closer to Himself. โค

Life makes us forget how big and great our God is.

And might I also add that forgetting our testimonies (all of the things that God has done throughout our lives) causes us to forget who we are and who our God is!

After praying, I came out of the prayer room and began reading some of my old posts.

What a Perspective change that was!!!

I felt rejuvenated, as if fresh breath had been breathed into me. I felt encouraged and blessed……..and grateful to my amazing God for giving me this gift of writing. He used some of my hardest life moments and turned them into something beautiful so that others could be ministered to.

And perhaps it was also so that I could always look back…….to see all that He has already brought me through.

As a reminder to keep going.

Perhaps you need a reminder of what God has done for you in the past. What is YOUR testimony? Think about it…….and know that if He did it then, He can do it again.

May God bless you all.

Trust His Heart

There is a song that I love by Pat Barrett. It’s titled ‘Canvas and the Clay’. The song expresses that God is an Artist and a Potter. And WE are the Canvas and the Clay.

Just Beautiful. โค

He knows our whole story. And He is shaping and molding and painting as He sees fit.

Yet somehow, I forgot the fact that God – in all His Sovereign Power – has the ability to provide things in my life that I didn’t ask for.

To shape my story.

Recently He hit me a doozy!!!!

And it has re-shaped my understanding of God………in an amazing way.

God’s love through Divine Provision

Whenever God blessed me with something before, I never saw it as if He did it because He loved me. I would only see that He did it because I asked for it and had Faith that He would do it.

Sigh…..I never even realized what a poor mindset that was to have!

But now I am seeing something that I did not specifically ask for being manifested.

And amazingly………….all I can see……..IS GOD’S LOVE.

That’s why He did it.

Not because I asked.

Or because I deserved it.

Not because I stood in faith that it would happen. (I was completely terrified at first! I couldn’t understand WHY God would send this NOW!!!)

But I had to let go and trust Him. Completely.

And face my fears.

And on the other side………..I found the love of my Heavenly Father.

I understand so many things about Him better now……it’s crazy!!!!

But I love it. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™Œโค

God loves you!! And He knows what is best for you right now. He also knows when to give you what you have been asking for.

So………in this season, try asking God to help you trust His Heart. And not only seek His Hand.

Wonderfully made

Have you ever looked at a picture of nature and been blown away by the sheer magnitude of God’s Power?

Have you ever wondered at how marvelous it is to know that God created the Earth and declared that ‘It is Good’?

And then did you realise that He also created Man and said ‘It is Good’?

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God created YOU!!!!!!

He created you to look just the way that you look and have the personality and unique characteristics that make you….YOU.

AND HE SAID THAT ‘IT IS GOOD’.

Just the way you are. Imperfections and all. ๐Ÿ˜ญ

He loves us just the way we are.

Psalm 139 verses 13 & 14 says:

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

So why do we worry???!!!

Why do we fret and fuss and suffer with anxiety and depression??!!!

When we serve THE GOD that created the mountains and the trees and the waterfalls……..I meannnnnnn He CREATED WATER!!!!!!! ๐Ÿคฏ He didn’t form it out of something.

He created it.

Ponder on that for a moment……

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Today I kept looking at this picture and envisioned myself standing on the edge overlooking the waterfall. Me…..this puny human……in comparison to the vast amount of enormous (yet gorgeous!) trees and this massive waterfall.

And it humbled me.

Because if my God could make THAT……….then my issues, struggles and problems are nowhere near to being too hard for Him to handle.

It was probably harder to make the waterfall! (Jk….lol)

So then …….WHY WORRY? ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ

I pray your perspective changes too. Because He’s got this.

He knew you would go through this even before He formed you.

Psalms 139:16 ESV

Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

Soooooooo He also knows that you WILL get through it.

It’s time to trust Him and love up on your God instead of worrying!!!

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I am sharing a song that has really been blessing me today because it asks the same question! Here it is:

I will give thanks

Hope this day turns out even better than it started off for you ๐Ÿ˜Šโค

It is FINISHED

Don’t you just love it when God teaches you a lesson?

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In my last post I spoke about the Fear of Judgement. And in it I shared on how I realized that my greatest judge and critic was actually …….. (go check out the post to find out ๐Ÿ˜). Fear of Judgement

Well I have to be honest and real with you.

I wrote that post…..and then I continued to do the very thing that I knew was destructive and non beneficial to my growth.

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BUT………….WHY????!!!! ๐Ÿ˜ซ

Such a perfect question.

Sigh…….I guess it became such a HABIT that doing it came naturally to me. And isn’t that how life is? We identify our weaknesses and shortcomings and assume that this is the beginning of our breakthrough.

We believe that knowing is equivalent to Overcoming.

But it isn’t.

Last night a friend of mine noticed my poor posture (drooping shoulders, head looking down) and called me out on the reason for my low self esteem. She identified the lies that I had been believing about myself and then spoke the TRUTH of who I am over me. She prayed for me and reminded me that I was to let God fix the things I didn’t like about myself. It wasn’t up to me.

And then this morning I woke up and the Holy Spirit led me to put on the audio bible (I use the YouVersion app) and then He reminded me of something my friend had encouraged me to do:

Write down all of the things that you KNOW about yourself. The things that you are sure of.

And so I did! And bit by bit the truth began to break the lies that I had been allowing myself to believe! I mean they fell right off of me and I felt lighter and free and whole!!!

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And today (on this beautiful Good Friday), I am here to be that friend to YOU!

STOP BELIEVING THE LIES OF THE ENEMY! AND SEEK THE TRUTH OF WHO YOU ARE!

Because as a Child of God we are free from Condemnation. We are free from Judgement because of what Jesus Christ did on the cross.

You are free from past sins and DO NOT have to live in them anymore!!!!

God has Forgiven YOU.

When Jesus had received the sour wine, he said, “It is finished,” and he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.
John 19:30 ESV
https://bible.com/bible/59/jhn.19.30.ESV

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All this time I had been beating myself up for my past ways of thinking toward other people and my past hurts.

I kept believing that I had an evil heart. And it beat me down to the point that I almost lost my identity.

I didn’t want to be ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sigh. I didn’t want to be me. ๐Ÿ˜ข

……And then God hit me with such a mind boggling Revelation concerning why He allowed me to go through all this turmoil……..

I had been judging myself the same way I used to judge others. And it had been crippling and downright hurtful.

This is what I had done to my friends in the past. I hurt them. ๐Ÿ˜ญ

And now I know what it feels like.

And I promise you…..I NEVER want to be like that or hurt anyone like that ever again!

I have learned my lesson.

And it may seem harsh that God allows us to go through certain situations to teach us something. But you see…….we have the wrong Perspective.

The situation isn’t about YOU. It is so that you can learn from it and help someone else!!!

Kinda like what I am doing right now ๐Ÿ™‚.

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Whatever you are going through right now, my encouragement to you is ‘GET UP AND PUSH HARDER!’

You will make it through.

You have to.

Fear of Judgement

We’ve all said it or heard it at some point in our lives:

“Don’t judge me!”

OR…….. haughtily quoted the infamous verse:

“Judge not that ye be not judged!”

Isn’t it funny that we always say that in the King James Version? ๐Ÿ˜„

Well the Lord reminded me of this verse recently. And so I began to write down the names of the people that I always feel judged by.

Yup…..I wrote them all down in my journal. And the last one that I wrote down made me stop……

  • MY MIND

Whoa. ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿคฏ

And right there in that moment the Holy Spirit dropped a land mine sized revelation on me:

The person who judges me the most …………is ME! ๐Ÿ˜ณ

Sooooo wait wait wait a minute! What about all those times I felt as if this person or that person didn’t like me or thought that I had not done a good job or didn’t like my outfit?

It was all in my mind. ๐Ÿ˜ซ

No one had actually told me these things. I just thought them. All this time I had been judging MYSELF.

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The truth is that many of us struggle with the Fear of feeling JUDGED. Whether it is from real or imaginary circumstances (like mine), feeling judged affects our self esteem and makes us downright bitter and angry.

How dare they make me feel less than I am!

That’s right! ๐Ÿ˜ 

And who gave them the right to judge you anyway???!

Well………you did.

Why does their opinion of you matter so much to you? (Ouch!! ……I know that hurt ’cause it hurt me!) But for real though why do we care about what they say??!

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Have you ever seen a confident man or woman walk past you on their way to work? Let’s say they are some big time CEO of a large corporation. Do you think that other people’s negative thoughts about them matter to them?

Nope. With a Capital N.

Do you know why it doesn’t matter to them? It’s because they know who they are. And what they believe and know about themselves trumps any lies persons with a grudge can come up with. They are SELF CONFIDENT. That’s it.

And we need to be too.

After getting this revelation the Lord gave me this scripture:

Then he reminded me of a video that I saw years ago. It is so very appropriately titled ‘How to be Confident’ ๐Ÿ˜.

The link is here.

And well because I love you I am also adding an extra Confidence Boost ๐Ÿ˜‰.

Let’s face the truth. The problem isn’t them. It’s us. So seek to work on you instead of blaming others for your insecurities.

It’s all part of the plan for a greater 2019 ๐Ÿ’ช๐ŸŽ‰ #greaterthings2019